The Diary of Working Mama..

How time flies, and for the past three months, it has been new experience for me, life is getting busier with new task. I never dreamed of that task, but, as an appreciation to my colleagues, I hope I can shoulder this big task and responsibilities with sense and patience.Insya Allah, may Allah gives me the strength to lead.

Alhamdulillah, 1st November is weekend but I have to be in the office- on duty, Saturday and Sunday. I love my works, it is part of doing what I like. Being away from the kids during weekend sounds not very adventurous, but, I guess that is the sacrifice that any working mama has to do when they are being called to work.. Guns and Roses song entitled 'November Rain'- Enjoy it!

There is a Malay song entitled " Tragedi Oktober", I feel that this October fulls with tragic news and unbelievable events occured in Malaysia. From " Oct Fest" which celebrates drinking liquour and "touch a dog" programs. All such events really saddened me as a Muslim, as it happened in so called majority Muslims country, Malaysia. After all the tragedies, MH370 and MH17 incidents, masya Allah, we are the chosen one. May Allah protects us and give us streghth in facing the challenging moments. Al Fatihah!

You might laugh what I feel at the moment. I feel so lazy to continue writing. Full stop.

Tajuk entry hari ini macam tajuk karangan, implikasi laman sosial, namun hakikatnya, memang berat. Kalau tidak gaya penggunaanya, boleh bercerai berai suami isteri, boleh putus silaturahim sesama saudara mara dan macam2 lagi. Inilah FITNAH terbesar yang dengan klik di komputer, segalanya berkemungkinan. Nawaitu atau niatku ialah mengemaskini perkembangan diri ini terutamanya anak2 apabila berjauhan dan merantau suatu masa dulu. Yelah, bila merantau duk jauh2 daripada kampung halaman, barulah rasa betapa berharganya masa dengan saudara-mara dan rakan2 di Malaysia..Apa2 pun, besederhanalah dalam penggunaan laman sosial Facebook. Jangan kerana Facebook, tidak ke syurga. Nauzubillah min zalik.

Alhamdulillah, today marks the 15 days in the month of Syawal. Being grateful and alhamdulillah, by words, actions and utterance are a must for us. At the same time, it is painful to see what is happening to our sisters and brothers in Palestine. May Allah rewards them Al-Jannah. The celebration of Syawal is meaningful if we can leave in peace and harmony. The conflicts in Gazza is not a one day story, but the sufferings and the tragic forced of Jews to Palestine is intolerable. It is against humanity and definitely, where are those people who are talking about human rights? I bet they only know to see and talk only. So disgusting! It is saddening when you teach and learn about human rights law, but, such law seems so idealistic, as it will never been achieved by mankind. Manipulating the international law is another story, but, the horror side is the sufferings and cruelty inflicted to young children and women. Condemn the modern illegal occupation of Jews in Palestine!

The independence day for Malaysia is just around the corner. Insya Allah, by the end of this month, 31 August 2014, the country will celebrate its national day. "Alhamdulillah". Life goes on. Time is so precious for us not to be grateful what we have today. Health, family, friends and the opportunities that we should be regarded as a bless. Alhamdulillah. However, do not forget the unfortunate one. Our doa and prayers are always with them. After every solat, let us doa and pray for the well being of the ummah!

Have you ever feel down due to people look down at you? Well, frankly, I may don't ever bother, who look up at me. After all, everyone is special in its own way. However, when the statements given to you directly, sounds harsh, you need a second thought. I call that as 'muhasabah' rather than judging yourself bad. Once in a while, we need space and support from the people surround you, especially, your family members. But, when your family members often uttered the negative words to you, hello, wait a minute, am I too bad? Yups, we need to refresh sometimes. After all, that is life. Take it positively, Allah knows the best for you. Keep on trying and improving. Well, life is too short to take seriously of all what people said about or directly to you.

Sedar tak sedar, hampir dua bulan tidak menulis di blog ini. Ada keutamaan lain yang perlu diberi keutamaan daripada menulis di sini. Akses kepada internet, kerajinan dan komitmen dengan si kecil membuatkan diri ini asyik menunda untuk menulis di sini. Ya masuk hari ke 9 Syawal, betapa cepat sungguh masa berlalu, ramadan kali ini sangat hiba dan sedih, melihat saudara seagama di bumi Palestine diperlakukan sebegitu oleh Yahudi laknatullah di Gaza. Doa dan terus berdoa serta boikot mana yang mampu. Insya Allah, sikit-sikit boikot, lama-lama jadi bukit. Kena kaji juga benarkah syarikat tersebut menyumbang atau tidak, tapi kalau dah terang lagi bersuluh, maka wajib ditinggalkan jenama tu. (Not a big fan to Starbucks, nescafe, Loreal). Selain harganya agak mahal, produk tempatan Malaysia pun ada sebagai alternatif. MCDonald, pernah ditinggalkan dan istiqamah dengan anak2. Maka perlu ditinggalkan terus sahaja selagi hayat dikandung badan. Moga usaha2 kecil kita ini diberkati dan dirahmati o...

Two recent incidents shocked the country. The discovery of disabled child/teenager nearby my workplace in Nilai who were poorly neglected really shocked the country. Many cyber netizens condemned the negligence single mother who claimed to be living in a poor condition. At the same, some netizens seemed to support the mother by claiming we should understand what actually happened to the mother. However, looking at the picture, I might say, even the poorest people do not simply ignore their children like that just because they live very poor. What's wrong with our today's Malaysian society?

Motherhood is something I cherish and enjoy it. Bringing kids are not an easy task- the question is how we want to instill good values so at the end our children have the right attitude. Talking about attitude- yes, this is the biggest challenge of being a mama. Of course, at the end of the day, you have to 'tawakkal' what have you taught to your children, but again, some perhaps success rate is essential. At least, before you passed away and leave this world- Again, the Prophet Muhamad reminds us on the importance of "doa anak solleh". Ya Allah, bring up my soleh sons and solehah girl. May Allah protects them! Pics at courtesy of my sis who was away for work in Istanbul, Turkey

I have been reading STAR online newspaper which reported that there are many medical lecturers are leaving the public universities. The main reason is not money, it is workloads and not being appreciated. Lecturing in today's world is extremely challenging, a lecturer is expected to lecture, to tutor, to supervise Master and PhD students, to publish papers in a refereed journal ( it must be SCOPUS, or else, just forget it), to be involved with community service, to actively engage with students and many other tasks. Well, it is not that lecturers are complaining, yes at one point, some argues that you have flexible time. Again, time is not an issue, sometimes you have to work 7 days a week to accomplish your listed tasks. Sometimes, you have last minute task given by your authorities. The main reason I guess why we stay in this profession is due to self satisfaction, the job is not glamour, unless you talk in television. Be it Ustaz or Ustazah Pilihan, that is another story. At the...

looking back for the past five years, it has been a fulfilling years. Blessed with two kids, a boy and a girl, alhamdulillah. After all, it has been an enjoyable process with the kids. Not to say, there has been also ups and downs of being a mama. It can tests your limits sometimes and often I feel I really need to improve for their future.

Today as usual I send my son to his nursery, seeing his little sister, who will be turn two years old this July, makes me ended up with mixed feelings. Apart of me, I admit I feel guilty sending them to Taska/nursery, but being a working mama, I have no choice. Sometimes, I feel like resigning, but I love my jobs. Eventhough it is not a glamour job, but the self satisfaction and self fulfilling are there. Well, my prayers and doa with them always. It has not been an easy way to me either or for them. Seeing them growing cheerfully and healthy makes me thankful always. May Allah protects us always. As today celebrates teacher day, wishing all teachers out there, happy teacher day ! not only today, but everyday! Taking care of my kids while I am away working..speechless..

Masya Allah, how time flies. It is the month of May. This means I have still pending works to do! I have been reading an article saying that you are not living in barakah usually 1) You have so much income, but at the end, it finishes faster, 2) Work never accomplished 3) you have so much work but actually you are busy with other things in life such as facebooking 4) Time is the essence. Masya Allah, perhaps it is true. Ya Allah grant me a bless life!

Masya Allah, how time flies, and as I am typing this blog, many unaccomplished tasks are still not done. For instance, I should developed a full paper last December, but until now, the paper remains as a draft! Once you have started working full time, you realized how difficult to write..compared to your study leave moment- where almost everyday, you manage to write and work on it! I don't blame anyone, it is myself- or what Prof Sherry Turkle said in her book second self- that I have the potential to postpone the work! Well, back to work and stop blogging-

It has been a challenging month, the weather has been vry dry, with no rain at all, for almost 2 months, and a result, we have problems with water supply. Not to mention, haze everywhere, and it makes me choking sometimes due to the air that we have breath. Early March, the whole country, I guess the whole world, is extremely shocked with the missing plane "MH 370 which is on the way to Beijing from KLIA. Innalillah Wa Ilahi Rajiun . This is really a testing month to all of us, Malaysian especially. We pray and doa that everything will turn back positively. There is a Malay proverbs saying "berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul", the burden is not easy to shield. My prayers to all family member and friends especially to the immediate family member. It is not easy to face such situation. Ya Allah, grant us the patience to face this difficult situation, we believe this is the best for us- to test our iman and understanding. My prayers also to all Muslims aro...

Alhamdulillah, eventhough it is a small apartment, it is just nice for six of us. It is cozy and it has rooms for everyone ( at the moment) but sharing bedroom cannot be avoided as there is only one air condition in the house. The master bed room. I guess there is still privacy for everyone. Alhamdulillah. Life goes on and no looking back!

Sometimes, the best solution in facing stubborn people, is to remain silence. Do not respond to their harsh critics but doa that Allah will lead them one day. Doa that they realize what they are doing actually hurt others. I guess silence is golden. For the time being, keep doa and I guess, try to avoid meeting these type of people!

Alhamdulillah, we managed to gather and celebrate our beloved mama's birthday during the final weekend of January 2014. We stayed one night in a hotel in the middle of city centre Kuala Lumpur. The hotel was crowded with Malaysian who were celebrating the Chinese New Year holiday, and I guess, almost everybody took the chance to have a holiday with their family! However, the stay in that hotel was really horror, it's service was not as expected from a five star hotel. It took ages to order meals for dinner and the staffs were not really friendly. Perhaps they were not prepared with full crowds into the hotel during that weekends! Well, I just stayed in room, as my little princess was not feeling well. Me myself also still coughing and infected by flu. My third son was just recovering from vomiting a day before the stay. Alhamdulillah, he recovered but after swimming in the pool, he also got temperature. Masya Allah. Perhaps due to the unpredicted weather. Anyway, alhamdulillah ...

Masya Allah, how time flies, last week was superb, it was only two working days. the rest was public holiday. How multicultural we Malaysian. We were given public holiday due to Maulud Rasul, our beloved Rasullullah Muhammad and by Friday, Thaipusam. Maulud Rasul reminds us as a Muslim our beloved Prophet and how do we pray day and night one day we will meet him insya Allah, in here after. However, many things need to be done, especially, muhasabah diri, looking at our own self, in our day to day matters, everything is countable. May Allah give us the ease. Insya Allah.

Why procrastination? Sometimes or often we keep postponing what we are supposed to do it right now but aha..we keep delaying it. We tend to create excuses and it never works sometimes. Seeing my children growing seeks a high supervision and monitoring- that was my hypothesis when I conducted my research. After all, appreciate what we have in our life. Be grateful always!

I am guess I am not as enthusiastic like others who willing to stay up waiting for the new year 2014! I would rather sit in bed quietly. enjoying and cherishing every moment with my little princess. As she turns 18 months, I realized she loves to listen to azan and sometimes songs/nasyid. Alhamdulillah, seeing and believing that she is 18 months, makes me thankful and rejuvenating (ahaks whether this is the proper word to use). She is also recovering from her pneumonia, pity my little girl. Anyway, she is still fully breastfeeding and she has started eating foods. I guess those who have kids around, the main concern is whether we are giving a healthy nutrition to them?? Hmm time to write up another research paper..